Frankly...

I had a rough day yesterday. M, my boyfriend, has gone out of his way to include me in his life down here but I still desperately want something, anything of my own. A job, a friend, SOMETHING. I got blown off by two separate people last night which didn't help me feel good about life down here. I can't help but have my guard up around new people, I have gotten burned so many times by friends. But, I'm still lonely, I still want people in my life who care about me, people down here I can go to other than M. Hopefully it will happen for me with time.