I'm having a hard time focusing at the moment. All I can think about is Brian. I (stupidly) looked at his facebook page which people still write on and it hit like a wave. The past year in general has gone by so fast, I want to rewind time and pause it...I'm not ready to move forward yet.

This weekend was pretty good...I layed out in the sun yesterday (and got burnt...whoops!) and then played tennis with Mike. Or, rather, I re-learned how to play tennis. I still remember some things even though I haven't played in 12 years. God, that's half my life ago. Can I please slow down?

After tanning and tennis I went and saw Alice in Wonderland with my friend Jenn. It was good...saw it in 3D. I am always reluctant to see movies in which Johnny Depp looks weird and/or unattractive because I'm afraid it will lessen my adoration. Oh well. The end of the movie terrified me. A butterfly flies out of the screen into the audience. Um, hello, terrified of butterflies right here. Time to get over that one.

Back to work...just needed to write down how I'm feeling.